Why am I doing this?

Posted in Bedlam, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Relationship with tags , , , , , on November 24, 2008 by mybedlam

For anyone stumbling upon my blog, the question isn’t “why am I in a relationship with someone with BPD,” but rather “why am I writing a blog and inevitably documenting the trials, tribulations, (and also wonderful moments) for anyone to read.”  “My Bedlam” does, however, refer to my insanity that comes from being in such a relationship!

I love being in a relationship with my partner.  I can’t imagine anyone else in my life.  However, Borderline Personality Disorder does play a role in our relationship.  It is a part of him that is there forever, and in order to love him I understand I must love all of him.  (This does not mean I have to like every part of him all the time… that is a different story!)

I’ve never really kept a blog before, and have no idea if anyone will ever read it.  Part of me hopes that someone who struggles in a similar relationship will feel connected with somebody who has been there, and understands the extreme amount of patience that is required.  Part of me hopes this will be a great constructive outlet to put my thoughts into words; something just for me.

I am not a doctor, therapist, or a psychologist; just a person who lives day by day with a wonderful man who happens to have Borderline Personality Disorder.  I don’t claim to know everything there is to know about the subject, but I think anyone who is in similar shoes will be able to connect with what I am saying.

Until then…